Have you ever felt as if your home wasn’t really your home? Well, I do. When I look at where I am now, I don’t feel like I am home. I’m longing for a place I’ve never been to.
I don’t think you’re meant to stay in the one place forever. There is a whole world out there that is wanting your footprints to mark it. I can hear it calling my name and I am so eager to go out there and see it.
Whether it’s in 5 days, 5 weeks, 5 months or 5 years.. I will one day be where I’m meant to be, and that’s a wonderful feeling.
Your dreams can never be too big.
We were high school sweet hearts and I was convinced we were going to spend the rest of our life together. Our relationship seemed perfect. Forever laughing, making new memories, having the most amazing sex. It was all beautiful. But somewhere it all went wrong.
Maybe it was when we gave half of ourselves to each other. Giving half of yourself to someone seems like a good idea at the time. It seems like it’s normal in a relationship. I now realise that it’s not. Who are you once it’s all over? You’re half of what you were. I feel lost. I don’t know who I am anymore. I allowed you to take half of me, and now I’m left with almost nothing. I thought that I had too. I thought that was what you did in relationships. And now I feel like I am floating, and just watching everyone else be content with themselves while I’m struggling to find who I am still.
I really wish I didn’t give you half of me. I really wish things worked out. I really wish we were still together. But maybe our relationship became toxic towards the end. I let myself go phsyically, mentally and emotionally while being in the realtionship. I wish I hadn’t. I lost all confidence and I thought I had to be with someone to feel happy with myself and now I know that’s not the case.
I miss you. I love you. I want us back. But first, I need to get myself back.